Try,try, try again…

Hey! It’s me, April….sorry I have been MIA. I seem to write when I have this incredible urge to do so, and I haven’t felt that urge in a minute. Today the writing bug struck and here I am.

I am starting a new workout plan and running 2-3 days a week. I implemented this today. What better day to start then a Thursday right?! I am not one to workout everyday and eat all the right foods, but I do try to stay in shape.

This year I would say I am at my worst. I feel sluggish, low energy and a bit too soft for my liking. Now, I am not saying that I don’t love my body, because I do. It’s just time to take care of her. I have a pretty long list of things I would like to accomplish in my life and to do those I need to stay healthy and active. So here is to number 13,465,789,603,836 times of starting over. I believe that failure is giving up and never trying again.

It is easy to shame yourself for giving up in the first place. Trust me, I talk myself out of feeling guilty for giving up. I am learning to give myself more grace and pep myself up when those thoughts run through my head like a freight train. I also realize that we are in a unique time. I am lucky to still have my day job, but I am unable to do my fun job. Due to that I have lost income and that has been tricky. I miss my Church family, my Generosity Feeds family, and just want the days of not worrying about a pandemic affecting our lives. I want my kids to go back to school, restaurants to be normal, and coffee shops open so I can enjoy a cup of coffee with my friends.

 I am an extrovert and I thrive on human interaction. I have a close group of friends, and I have been able to maintain a surprisingly good social life. I did meet a pretty great guy that I don’t think I would have met if it weren’t for quarantine boredom. So, this whole pandemic hasn’t been a complete bummer.  It still isn’t quite the same though. With that being said, I realized that my motivation to workout has been at an all time low. So today is the day that I changed that. I am fairly sure that the next few weeks I will have to argue with myself to get out of bed in the morning to get my workout in. In the end though I know that it will boost my mood, give me more energy, and feel good.

If you see me slacking, I give you full permission to call me out on my bullshit. And if you want to join me for a run or walk, I am game!

“Instead of letting your hardships and failures discourage you, let them make you even hungrier to succeed.” ~ Michelle Obama

Xoxo,

April